dreams

i've been having pretty rad/intense dreams the last few weeks.  i think it has something to do with the fact that i've been sleeping in 3-4 hour shifts, and when i do that, i tend to remember dreams better than when i sleep longer at once.  my most recent hilarious dream notwithstanding (which i'm not going to talk about because it would probably be retroactively embarrassing to a certain person...though still hilarious), most of my dreams have been pretty intense.

i have this one special kind of dream from time to time, and i thought i'd post about it to see if there are any fellow "sufferers" out there...it goes like this: basically it's a dream about being really really happy.  for some reason or another, there's a situation in the dream in which i'm just really goddamn happy, and this continues throughout the dream.  then i wake up, and in this weird way, it's actually sort of a sad dream, because in the dream i'm literally happier than i've ever been in my actual life (sometimes over really dumb shit, too).  which isn't to say, like, "aww...i'm actually not happy in life" because of course that's not it at all.  it's this super-cheesy happiness that actually probably couldn't happen in real life unless you were like on E or hydros or something.

i always have this urge to put an exclamation point after the E.  "hey guys, y'all want to do some E! Entertainment Network tonight?!"

anyway, this most recent dream was about a girl i sort of briefly dated a long time ago, who for some reason i was thinking about a lot yesterday anyway (and not in a particularly wistful way or anything, just being curious about what she was up to).  in the dream we were just doing sort of mundane things like wandering around one of the old parks i used to frequent back home in ohio and, i think at one point, getting groceries.  and for the entire thing i was just SO FUCKING HAPPY.  so much so that waking up was disorienting.

these sorts of dreams always sort of weird me out.  i mean, it wasn't even like a "wow, i'm with the girl i should actually have been with!" dream or anything relevatory or important, either.  it's just always a really stupidly pleasant dream for no discernible reason (when i have this type of dream)...i guess maybe it's frustrating because on some level, i still think that dreams might contain some kind of crazy space message that we're supposed to learn from (although that's obviously pretty silly).  and there is no message in these happy dreams.  it's like...YOU'RE SUPER HAPPY...BECAUSE THIS IS A DREAM!

and that's it.

i guess maybe this is a good thing...so many people i know have constant nightmares that probably relate to their subconscious being all stressed and wonked out and shit...i guess if i'm having dreams where i'm just obnoxiously happy i should be happy.

UPDATE: i was going to attach a video of the whiskeytown cover of fleetwood mac's "dreams" because it seemed appropriate, but youtube has failed.  so i blipped it.  if you want to hear it, just search the #defiantlymaybe hashtag on twitter.  god, social networking is so weird.  why do we do it?

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